Nightmares

I had a nightmare last night that Joe died in a car accident. It was very detailed and I will spare you all those details, but it was A-W-F-U-L. Obviously I had to wake Joey up. I knew everything was okay but I just had to give myself closure and tell him what had happened.

I hate having scary dreams like that, it always makes you think what would really happen if your dream turned into reality.. something I never want to experience.

When I was little and I would go to my Grandma Pat's house, she would always ask me what I dreamed about the night before. If I had a good dream she would have me tell her about it, if it was a bad one, she would give me paper and crayons and tell me to get it out on the paper. So I guess this is just me getting out my fear on paper.

Joey, I just want you to know that you are my love, my life, and my best friend. I hope I have you until were both 100 years old and we have to wipe each other's butts.. now that is true love.

:-)

Starting Small...

Its weird growing up.

It is really a great experience and I feel like I love life more being older, but its always strange seeing all my friends get married and start families of their own... even though I'm doing the exact same thing. When you first graduate high school and you start seeing your friends get married that is such a surreal experience, but evetually you get married yourself and its suddenly old news.

Then you start hearing the news of everyone starting to have babies.. that is what really makes me stop and think.. I'm not a kid anymore. We have some friends who are starting a family this year and I am SO excited for them. This is going to be quite a busy year with baby showers.. pretty much one every month for the next 6 months! But when I stop and think 'Am I ready to be a mom?' I just can't see myself there yet, I can't see either Joey or I being parents yet.

I want to be secure with our jobs, which we are for the most part, and I want a good good stable envirnment for our baby. I want a home that our child can grow up in and love. Joey and I have not been married very long at all and I just dont think I am ready to share him yet either. (as selfish as that sounds..)

We have a joke in our family that ourkids are going to be 4-legged furry babies (dogs) and joey is going to be a stay at home dad..

I think later in life when we do decide to start a family of our own Joey is going to be the greatest dad to our kids. But I know that time is far away. We just arent ready yet. I'm not ready to fully grow up yet, I want to see the world and take random trips with our friends and just live our young lives to the fullest. There will be plenty of time for kids in the future.

So this brings me to the conclusion of our furry legged children... were going to see if our apartment will let us get a dog. Both Joey and I grew up with dogs in the house, and that is something we have missed since we have been married. My mom offered to give us Fonzi.. the cutest little Mini Pinscher EVER, but Joey said NO WAY. He is just a cute old dog, but stuck in his ways and he would be better staying with my mom.

We were at Harmons the other day and they had the Human Society there with a few dogs. Joey saw one and he fell in love with him right away. He was just a furry little mutt and my heart melted seeing Joey play with the little dog. And I can't get my mind off of having a dog of our own since. So after begging and begging for about a solid month, Joey FINALLY said okay, along with the parent talk of When it pees on the carpet your cleaning it up, When it has to go out to pee at 3 in the morning your taking it, when it needs to be fed your feeding it. (I felt like I was 12 again talking to my mother after asking for a new pet)

So hopefully soon we will have a little baby puppy of our own! I guess we will just have to see how it goes....

Out With The Old, In With The New..

A common question my client's at work always ask me is "What are your hobbies?" Honestly the first thing that comes to my mind is... SHOPPING! Seriously!! I do have other hobbies: boating, hiking and such, but lately my hobby is shopping. I love being married and having a home of my own. My favorite part of having my own home is putting stuff in it! My new favorite store.....

Joey says I'm addicted, but I just really love it! Even if I don't buy anything I just love going and seeing what they have to get new ideas for my next project.

We recently got a new couch, we gave our old ones to our friends, and I love the new one! I call it a grown up couch. It just looks mature, so since we got a new couch, I felt like the rest of the place was just boring and bland. I have had so much fun redecorating our little home. I feel like our little apartment is twice its size now, we have so much open room. Its much more comfortable than before.

Before...

After...

Our Wedding Shelf, one of my favorite things

Since we have decided to stay in our apartment a little longer until Joey gets his Journeymen license (he takes his test this month!) having new things make it a little easier to wait for the time to come to actually get a house.

I finally feel like we have a home and its all put together. We have lived in our apartment for over a year now and I had always felt like it was never fully put together (I'm just waiting for Joey to put one more thing together... big surprise :-)). Having cute nice things I can enjoy lessens the stress and anxiety of what house hunting brings. Just cross your fingers that we can find one soon!